Got the sniffles

Ah...so I'm in a funk right now. Like some sort of weird denial I guess. I've been really lazy but I've also been doing a lot of chores that I'd usually put off...I recently beat Rune Factory 3 (great game, recommend it) and one of my best friends is on vacation...I feel odd...I've started being more outgoing and I feel like my life was better before, when I was more shy. At the same time I feel like I'm seeing the bigger picture more than I used to. I feel like someone else has stepped into my shoes...Like I'm entirely me anymore. This came on very suddenly so it's kind of disorienting. I'm just going to come right out and say it since hardly anyone really reads these things anyway; I know my friends are getting really tired of my insecurities. I get that. Which is why I'm not so vocal about them as I used to be. A lot of people dislike me because I can be moody and snap at them out of nowhere, and I'm pretty cynical. But a lot of people like talking to me when I feel more talkative and joking. I don't really know where I'm going with this. Really I just see the summer as an opportunity to better myself and I apologize to anyone who has been offended by me since I've been out-of-sorts and inconsiderate lately. I will get better. Thanks for being patient with me.